The girl in the sunny place

This is the bittersweet tale of my first week in my first job.

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I'm just going to delve into this topic once because I was hurt and terribly affected by a video, cleverly titled "Dear Fat People."

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This is a weird first post in this website. Still learning the ropes for this one.

Yo! Mariane here. My best friend calls me Mars, my family call me by my second name, my college blockmates decided to call me Mayan, for some unknown reason. I collect books. I collect notebooks. I search the internet for some of the most bizarre happenings around the world. I'm obsessed with creepypastas and disturbing tales. I love cake, french fries and hamburgers. I haven't had any drinks from Starbucks but I love instant coffees because I'm too lazy to make my own cuppa. I often have bad dreams. I'm a Virgo. I'm an INFP. Currently unemployed but on my way to getting a job. A Journalism graduate. I hate parties and talking in front of a crowd. I shop for clothes in the men's section. I hate skirts but I like dresses. I spend too much time on Youtube. I'm interested in stories about serial killers. I want to be an astronaut, or maybe volunteer to travel to another planet or to the moon. Basically an introvert.

I like dorks. I guess I'm a subdued and mostly calm person so I seek for something fun and weird in people.

But anyway, here are some helpful links!

My account and writing community at Livejournal - Spacewhistler and Ghosts in Space

My personal blog, Fictionalien and a literary blog, Written on Scraps of Paper

My Fanfiction account under the name, HexShadow because it's still relevant, at least to me and a AO3 counterpart under the pseudonym, MayanMcCool

And my Tumblr account, a multifandom trash bin under the name The Girl in the Sunny Place

I guess that's all, thank youuuu!

So yeah. It has been four months since I graduated from college and this is my first job interview.

Frankly, I'm freaking terrified. Because I don't know if I'm good enough for the position although I may have seemed enthusiastic in my cover letter.

I am just...if this isn't for me, then I'll accept it. But I really really want a job. Not necessarily for me, but for my mother.

I don't know. I may just have to throw up before the interview on Monday.

CARRIE MIRRORS MY SENTIMENTS BELOW. *huff and sigh*

[Error: unknown template qotd]My top three musical artists, and this may be bit of an absurd combination, would be Arashi, Ed Sheeran and Mcfly.

First and foremost, Arashi is a group that generally gives off a feel-good vibe. In a group of five completely different individuals, no one hogs the spotlight, no one stands out over the others. They have an extraordinary balance among members and that's just one of the many reasons why I love them as a group. I feel like their best work is "Happiness" just because it's a song that truly uplifts one's spirits and if I'm feeling sad, I'll have this one blasting through the speakers, definitely. It's an amazing song. They're not exactly great singers and dancers but their charm lies in their chemistry.

I've been a fan of Ed Sheeran way before he became a big name in the music industry. I used to look for his albums in local music stores and I remember when no one knew his name. I loved him through The A Team and the Lego House and seeing him grow from that independent singer to a huge star known around the world is something I take pride in. I feel like his best work is The A Team. It's probably one of the least known songs of Ed but when I first internalized the song's lyrics, I sobbed so hard. It's too realistic and the words are so beautifully strung together in something poetic. I love it so much. His voice is something I will never get tired of.

Lastly, but definitely not the least, is Mcfly. I discovered them through Lindsay Lohan's "Just My Luck." I thought they were such a cute British band then. But they've grown into truly fine gentlemen. I love Mcfly because their songs tell stories and they make me dance. It's full of instruments, a cute tune, and the lyrics are cool. Tom and Danny write the songs for the band, too, and Tom is superbly talented. I think "Room on the Third Floor" is their best work. It's a mellow song about a room they've stayed in when they became a band. I will never get tired of listening to it.

I guess that's all. I'm too passionate about these people and I hope they last in the industry longer. :)

Saw this interesting list and I decided to answer it on my own. Like someone would ask me. :D

1:A song you like with a color in the title - Yellow Pages by Ed Sheeran (actually one of the first Sheeran songs I discovered back in 2012)
2:A song you like with a number in the title - Five Colours in Her Hair by Mcfly (a great pick-me-up song and it's the classic tune of Mcfly. I love it.)
3:A song that reminds you of summertime - Best Song Ever by One Direction (I don't know. I guess I have a lot of memories of playing it on my phone a lot during summer?)
4:A song that reminds you of someone you would rather forget about - none, I think. Can't associate anything to that person.
5:A song that needs to be played LOUD - Happiness by Arashi (to lift people's spirits up!!!) or Centuries by Fall Out Boy (THAT SONG IS LEGEN-waitforit-DARY!)
6:A song that makes you want to dance - Sing by Ed Sheeran.
7:A song to drive to - Life is a Highway by Rascal Flatts. (One word: CARS)
8:A song about drugs or alcohol - Drunk by Ed Sheeran
9:A song that makes you happy - Hey Yeah by Sho Sakurai
10:A song that makes you sad - Hold You by Nina Nesbitt featuring Kodaline (this sounds better as a duet and my heart hurts every time I hear this)
11:A song that you never get tired of - A.RA.SHI by Arashi (I don't even need to explain.)
12:A song from your preteen years - Bitiw by Spongecola (I listened to a lot of OPM in my preteen years of no internet access)
13:One of your favorite 80’s songs - Thriller by Michael Jackson (Michael Jackson is a family favorite)
14:A song that you would love played at your wedding - Thinking Out Loud by Ed Sheeran (I don't care if it's too overrated these days. If Ed, and only Ed, sings this at my wedding, whether or not he's the groom, I will cry like a baby)
15:A song that is a cover by another artist - Wayfaring Stranger by Ed Sheeran (I JUST LOVE THIS ON LOOP PEDAL GAHD)
16:One of your favorite classical songs - Symphony No. 7 by Beethoven (from Nodame Cantabile! GYAAAA~)
17:A song that would sing a duet with on karaoke - Everything Has Changed by Taylor Swift featuring Ed Sheeran (Huhu, please)
18:A song from the year that you were born - Always by Bon Jovi (this song is everything, I swear. Thank you, older cousin for letting me listen to this on your old mp3 player)
19:A song that makes you think about life - 100 Years by Five for Fighting (just listen to it and experience existential crisis)
20:A song that has many meanings to you - Blackbird by The Beatles
21:A favorite song with a person’s name in the title - Little Joanna by Mcfly
22:A song that moves you forward - Kitto Daijoubu by Arashi or I'll Be Ok by Mcfly (both tell the same message)
23:A song that you think everybody should listen to - Gang of Rhythm by Walk Off the Earth (it's such a fun, instrument-filled song. I can only remember listening to it with a smile on my face.)
24:A song by a band you wish were still together - It's Gonna Be Me by Nsync
25:A song by an artist no longer living - Greatest Love of All by Whitney Houston
26:A song that makes you want to fall in love - Tenerife Sea by Ed Sheeran (I wish that song was dedicated to me, dang it)
27:A song that breaks your heart - You Break Me by Ed Sheeran and Yozora e no Tegami by Aiba Masaki
28:A song by an artist with a voice that you love - Lego House by Ed Sheeran, Selfies by Nina Nesbitt and Kono Mama Motto by Sho Sakurai (sorry, can't choose)
29:A song that you remember from your childhood - My Heart Will Go On by Celine Dion (my earliest memory is actually watching Leonardo DiCaprio risking his life for a woman with this song playing in the background and young me swaying along to it.)
30:A song that reminds you of yourself - Sha-La-La by Venga Boys (my mother used to tease me whenever this song plays because when I was a kid, I'd relentlessly dance to it. Not even aspired to be a dancer, tbh)

THIS IS PROCRASTINATION AT ITS FINEST. And oh yeah, my high school friends invited me out for snacks tomorrow and I can't bring myself to go and meet them after so long because ANXIETY IS ACTING UP AGAIN. I don't even know what to do.

Cancelling at the last minute. Writing tons tomorrow, instead. I still have some Junba and Yama fics on hold. YAY MEEEE! (•‾⌣‾•)و ̑̑♡

The next year's presidential elections will be my first time voting and I have faith in my vote making a change for the country.

But with the recent events, I think people would settle for the famous politicians, or worse, settle for the lesser evil and I feel like this would be one of the worst elections EVER. I haven't been around for long but yeah, you get the gist.

An aspiring president is making a name for himself, desperate to acquire the public's sympathy and hopefully, votes in the upcoming election. This pathetic idiot and the members of his family in politics apparently feel like they have done so much for the country already. He even dissed the administration he was in for the better part of six years. During his speech, he asked, "Where was the administration?" You're a part of that administration, idiot. The question should be, WHERE WERE YOU?. Not to mention, he was the freaking vice president. As if that wasn't a high enough position to initiate changes in the country he wished to serve. If he was ever elected president, I WOULD DEFINITELY LEAVE THIS COUNTRY ASAP.

Then there was this inexperienced senator who has been in position for only a few years who was pressured to run for president because of her popularity among the masses. It's sick. She has tons of potential, if you ask me, but to spoil that reputation with a run for presidential elections, I would think it was a bit presumptuous of her. I just hope she never gives in to the current administration's foolish plans to gather support from the voters.

Then there were experienced politicians with tons of potential of making changes with this tortured country, who couldn't appeal to most of the masses because most people don't really have access to internet and the news. I would want to vote for them, but I guess they're losing hope already with the number of aspirants. I know some who have been running for the same position for years. This year of elections may be just another year for them.

I feel terrified for this country. I just hope the people who will vote keeps in mind that a small amount of bribe for your vote will not last for six years, the same length of his reign over the country. It's deceiving and I hate that people still get deceived for a small money. If I were you, I would ask for a larger amount before they could buy my vote. To legal voters, use your mind and not your temporary thirst for money. If this country gets a decent leader, I'm sure you'll receive more benefits. Like better appropriations for the people's taxes. We badly need that.

A poem. Something to get my mind off of things.

( I have seen the afterlife. )

[Error: unknown template qotd]I was in sixth grade when my Secret Santa/friend/classmate decided to give me a copy of this new comic book called Kikomachine Komix, along with some food (because he knows I love a good read to match good food, what an amazing friend). It was written in Filipino and almost all of the jokes are centered on college life. When I reread this first book when I was in college, I finally got most of the jokes. It was that memorable for me.

Kikomachine, unlike most comic strips, have characters with no names, yet they have these striking personalities which made them stand out. The comic thrives on simplicity and sarcastic humor. It WAS amazing.

I just felt like I missed out on a lot of jokes before because when I reread the comic book, I didn't remember laughing as much as I did when I picked it up again.

Not to mention, the artist, Manix Abrera, also made comic strips of journalists' daily life. The punch lines were hard-hitting and so realistic!

But despite my admiration for Kikomachine (which I wish would stay around for much longer), I kind of miss my cousin's favorite comics, Funny Komiks, all in Filipino. I don't know. It used to be his source of inspiration for his art and I used to read it a lot before. Some of the strips were a lot like anime, but the originals were classics.

*Sigh* I suddenly miss Niknok, Litlit Bulilit and Tomas at Kulas.

So on our last year in college, we decided to take on the challenge of writing a hundred, 100-word stories of any genre. Sadly, we didn't get to finish because of thesis, internship and tons of other things to write. (Sometimes, I feel like I shouldn't have chosen a course which requires more writing than I actually do on a daily basis. But yeah, Journalism has been really fun so no regrets)

I Googled one of my stories and a Wattpad link was on the top. I made a book under the pseudonym, Fuzzwald, containing the stories of various authors, though most are mine. My nickname for this writing project was Calypso. I have four other friends who contributed under the names, Indigo, Wormtail, Grinmoire Heart and Four-eyed Panda. This book was wittingly called, Project One Hundred.

I was so psyched for the first few days that I wrote about ten. I slacked off after that because I had pending tasks for thesis. Not to mention, two of the contributing writers are my thesis-mates.

So, for this year, we're going to take on this challenge again. Restarting Project One Hundred for a VERSION 2! Featuring new pseudonyms but same writers. The new books may include their short bios, I don't know. BUT YAY! We're doing it again!

Here's to battling boredom, one hundred words a day!